12/03/2010

FUCK FUCK FUCK!

I can have a wank soon!!!! Yes! So happy about that you have no idea!

but, other than the massive joy of being free of these damn restrictions I don't feel all that great, I have raised a fair bit for charity, and I'm hoping to raise more. But I certainly haven't gone through any big life changing moments, really I've just been me, but with extra mood swings. So to any guy thinking of doing similar, don't bother! Seriously, it's just like life, but without wanking or sex, and those are two of favourite things!

Fuck, I like SEX!

Anyway, I did it, I put myself through all this shit to raise some money, so you bastards had better donate!

Much love to everyone who has, and all those that have been cool in other ways. Even all you cute girls that have taunted me so!

10/03/2010

2 and a bit days to go!

right now I've got about 54 hours and 41 minutes to go :D

Nearly done. I'm actually starting to think this was kinda worth it! I've raised quite a bit of money and I should be able to raise as much again (so long as all you buggers that promised actually do donate!) I've proven to myself that I have self-control, I'm not a sex addict, and it's even started to put my priorities. I always used to say 'Bros before Hoes' (sorry to be so crude) but now I know it. Well, more like friends before a fuck, but the meaning is pretty much the same.

My friends are some of the greatest, so I'd rather not fuck them over, especially for just a shag. I might fuck 'em over for a 3way with japanese twins though - sorry guys!

However, I haven't felt that life changing epiphany I was kinda hoping for. I haven't been struck with the idea that a wife and kids is what I want. I'm still going to be the same old me, but I do intend to be a nicer person, so if I say something nice, just take the compliment, it doesn't always mean I'm hitting on you!

We'll see where things go after my holidays, I hope my life continues to be as awesome as it has been the last year or so :D

If you still haven't donated - please do! www.justgiving.com/40days

LOVE

08/03/2010

5 days :D

Only 5 days to go people! I haven't slipped up yet, and I'm not going to now!

So if you've been waiting to donate, this is the time to do it!

All of you that promised, whether in person, or on facebook or wherever else, it's time to get your wallets out!

I'm £15 short of my half way point but I'm still hopefull I'll make the target. Remember, 40 days of misery at 50p a day is £20 ;) But please, if you can - give more! It's all for a good cause!

www.justgiving.com/40days

PS If I don't reach the target, then I'm going to keep nagging those that didn't donate until you do! So donate asap and maybe I'll shut the hell up!

04/03/2010

Terra Vs Ben

I was talking to a girl the other day and she said something that made me think. It was the idea that Terra is a different person to Ben...

Terra is my confident, outrageous, cocky personality, while Ben is quieter, nicer and more introverted. I realise that everyone changes depending on the situation, and I know I don't have split personality disorder or anything like that. I just like the concept that there's two people, who act differently and want different things. It certainly explains some of the contradictions that I come out with!

Ben wants a girlfriend, to settle down, to watch films and snuggle, someone to buy flowers for when picking up the milk on the way home, he wants structure and stability and comfort.

Terra wants to go out and play around, meet lots of girls and flirt his heart away, he wants a different girl every night of the week, but wants to sleep alone, he wants his own space. He wants adventure, the excitement of the unknown, and doesn't want to get tied down.

I imagine every guy feels a bit like this, and balancing the two is part of what makes you who you are. Obviously I'm a bit out of whack at the moment, what with being filled with sperm, but I know that the 'Terra' side of me has been winning for the last year or so. The idea of a girlfriend appeals so much to the 'Ben' side, yet I am torn between the two, and I'm taking girls with me. They meet Terra, the cocky wanker that he is, then get suckered by the sappy wanker of Ben.

I wish I only wanted one thing, but it's so damn hard! Maybe if I shoot myself through the cheek I'll be cured!

03/03/2010

The home stretch!

Less than 10 days to go now, it really feels like I'm nearly done. I've got just 7 days left of work, which makes me happy, considering how annoying it's got lately.

Anyway, I'm nearly done - I'm not gunna slip up now - so if you're waiting till I'm finished, may as well donate now - I'm not gunna slip up now, I'm too close to the end!

www.justgiving.com/40days

PS - boys, if any of you think you could do this - DON'T DO IT! It's just horrible! Don't even joke about it, and definitely don't commit, it's stupid and crazy and shit!

01/03/2010

This is getting hard!

Ok, I've done all of feburary - that's good, I've got about 10 and a half days left to go, but dispite the finishing line being finally in sight, It's getting really hard.

For all of you that wanted me to suffer, you can feel happy in yourselves, because I really am! I feel down a lot of the time, I'm finding it hard to concentrate on things, I am constantly getting aroused, and most disgustingly, getting messy :\ It's horrible and embarrassing, and something which I wasn't expecting to be so bad. My balls and now really sensitive, and my dick hurts after I've had a piss.

THIS IS NOT RIGHT!

I can't wait for this to be over, after going through so much I'm not gunna give up now. I can't and I won't.

This is day 29 of my torture - please donate, seeing that total rise is the only thing keeping me sane!

www.justgiving.com/40days