So I'm back onto the music topic again. And again, it's the retardation of genres.
I read today about emocore. It's a phrase I've heard before, but this time it kind of got to me. It was an argument on last.fm about whether a band was, post-hardcore, screamo, emocore or one of many other genres that all seem to describe a very similar group of artists. I get that screamo is music with screaming in, but also has an emo-y-ness to them, and that emocore is emo but with more hardcore influence, and post-hardcore is... ahhhh what the hell!
Does it really matter? I've heard good and bad bands of every genre, so surely picking out these little bits really is pointless yeah? I'm all for using genres to describe music, it's very obvious thing to do - if two bands sound similar you need to be able to describe that style. But the over complication is just stupid. A band is not defined by it's genre, and it is more than possible for a band to play any number of styles throughout the course of it's history (like brand new) or an album (like Queen) or even through a song (Tub Ring anyone?) So, lets just chill out a bit, and stop worrying about it.
If I call them metalcore or hardcore and you call them postscene-emocore then I'll probably think you're an idiot, but at least I'll know what a band sounds like! Pretty similar to a lot of what I like, which has some screaming some singing, some guitars and some drums. When it comes down to it, there's only two labels that really matter - Awesome and Not
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04/05/2010
08/04/2010
The Comfort Zone
The comfort zone is lovely place, it's all squishy and soft, warm and cosy, and when you leave it it can be very hard to be yourself. It happens quite often, but not as much as it should. It's something that you need to do every now and again, to check that you're pushing yourself hard enough, to look at yourself from the outside, and as a test to how you can cope no matter where you are.
Almost anything can push you out of your comfort zone, whether it's being left alone in a strange place, or not being in the right mood, not having the atmosphere, even having a cold. When you're at work or at home it's unlikely that you'll leave the zone, but when you're out with friends it can take just one thing to kick you out of it. Once that happens it can be quite a daunting place, and hard to get back again.
Perhaps the trick is not just to be able to survive outside the zone, but also to be able to extend the zone to where you are. To be able to go somewhere you don't fit in, or where you don't know anyone and just make yourself as at home as you would be anywhere else.
This may prove hard if people are less friendly, but once you get into a good conversation location is really quite irrelevent, your frame becomes more focused.
Re-framing is an excellent process, conducted in the mind and really is just looking at things from the bright side. If you don't get the job after an interview, instead of focusing on the negative sides, you can learn from the positives. You learnt that you need to work on your interview technique, or that a certain technique didn't work in that scenario. Every situation is framed by each person, and understanding another persons view can allow you to empathise, or find a way to make them see it your way.
It can also help get you back into your comfort zone - but then, so can alcohol. Up to you I guess...
Almost anything can push you out of your comfort zone, whether it's being left alone in a strange place, or not being in the right mood, not having the atmosphere, even having a cold. When you're at work or at home it's unlikely that you'll leave the zone, but when you're out with friends it can take just one thing to kick you out of it. Once that happens it can be quite a daunting place, and hard to get back again.
Perhaps the trick is not just to be able to survive outside the zone, but also to be able to extend the zone to where you are. To be able to go somewhere you don't fit in, or where you don't know anyone and just make yourself as at home as you would be anywhere else.
This may prove hard if people are less friendly, but once you get into a good conversation location is really quite irrelevent, your frame becomes more focused.
Re-framing is an excellent process, conducted in the mind and really is just looking at things from the bright side. If you don't get the job after an interview, instead of focusing on the negative sides, you can learn from the positives. You learnt that you need to work on your interview technique, or that a certain technique didn't work in that scenario. Every situation is framed by each person, and understanding another persons view can allow you to empathise, or find a way to make them see it your way.
It can also help get you back into your comfort zone - but then, so can alcohol. Up to you I guess...
04/03/2010
Terra Vs Ben
I was talking to a girl the other day and she said something that made me think. It was the idea that Terra is a different person to Ben...
Terra is my confident, outrageous, cocky personality, while Ben is quieter, nicer and more introverted. I realise that everyone changes depending on the situation, and I know I don't have split personality disorder or anything like that. I just like the concept that there's two people, who act differently and want different things. It certainly explains some of the contradictions that I come out with!
Ben wants a girlfriend, to settle down, to watch films and snuggle, someone to buy flowers for when picking up the milk on the way home, he wants structure and stability and comfort.
Terra wants to go out and play around, meet lots of girls and flirt his heart away, he wants a different girl every night of the week, but wants to sleep alone, he wants his own space. He wants adventure, the excitement of the unknown, and doesn't want to get tied down.
I imagine every guy feels a bit like this, and balancing the two is part of what makes you who you are. Obviously I'm a bit out of whack at the moment, what with being filled with sperm, but I know that the 'Terra' side of me has been winning for the last year or so. The idea of a girlfriend appeals so much to the 'Ben' side, yet I am torn between the two, and I'm taking girls with me. They meet Terra, the cocky wanker that he is, then get suckered by the sappy wanker of Ben.
I wish I only wanted one thing, but it's so damn hard! Maybe if I shoot myself through the cheek I'll be cured!
Terra is my confident, outrageous, cocky personality, while Ben is quieter, nicer and more introverted. I realise that everyone changes depending on the situation, and I know I don't have split personality disorder or anything like that. I just like the concept that there's two people, who act differently and want different things. It certainly explains some of the contradictions that I come out with!
Ben wants a girlfriend, to settle down, to watch films and snuggle, someone to buy flowers for when picking up the milk on the way home, he wants structure and stability and comfort.
Terra wants to go out and play around, meet lots of girls and flirt his heart away, he wants a different girl every night of the week, but wants to sleep alone, he wants his own space. He wants adventure, the excitement of the unknown, and doesn't want to get tied down.
I imagine every guy feels a bit like this, and balancing the two is part of what makes you who you are. Obviously I'm a bit out of whack at the moment, what with being filled with sperm, but I know that the 'Terra' side of me has been winning for the last year or so. The idea of a girlfriend appeals so much to the 'Ben' side, yet I am torn between the two, and I'm taking girls with me. They meet Terra, the cocky wanker that he is, then get suckered by the sappy wanker of Ben.
I wish I only wanted one thing, but it's so damn hard! Maybe if I shoot myself through the cheek I'll be cured!
19/02/2010
There's this girl right...
From back home, I didn’t know her all that way, but she’s very talented and very very good looking. And well… I got close a few times, but nothing ever came of it. Everytime I see her pictures appear I get a pang of regret that I didn’t try that little bit harder.
The last thing I want is to be a dodgy interenet guy, I’m sure there’s plenty of those who know her only through her pictures. I just wanted to put this out there. Maybe it’s the lack of sex, maybe she’s the one. Either way, I would give too much just for one night with her.
The last thing I want is to be a dodgy interenet guy, I’m sure there’s plenty of those who know her only through her pictures. I just wanted to put this out there. Maybe it’s the lack of sex, maybe she’s the one. Either way, I would give too much just for one night with her.
09/02/2010
Make Time Faster!
I don't think I've ever been in a situatuion where I've wanted to make a month go by so much! There's fuck all going on this month, I'll just wake up in march please?
08/02/2010
Friends
Why do we have friends?
For an entirely selfish purpose really, friends help us feel better - whether it’s cheering you up when you’re sad, or just helping you to enjoy a good night out. Good friends will have a mutual relationship, both being able to rely on each for support, and for good times.
Sometimes it can be hard to be a good friend, if someone is going through a bad period, it may seem like a waste of time to keep on supporting them - but if you know they were a good friend, and will be again once they’re sorted out - it’s worth it. Think of your friends like torrent downloaders - there’s a seed/leech ratio. If someone is leeching from you, exhausting your energy and pulling you down, without ever supporting you, or making you smile - then that is a bad friend! Maybe their skills aren’t in making you laugh, but comforting you when you’re down, or even just making you feel good about yourself.
Just take a second to think about your friends, do they drag you down or lift you up? Are they really worthy of being your friend?
Now - think of yourself, do you do things to lift your friends? Or are you always bitching and moaning? Maybe today you go and do something nice for them, just a text to say how much you appreciate them, or making sure they’re ok. It’s so simple, but making people really is.
Finally - think about those people who really aren’t good friends and ask yourself - do I really need them?
For an entirely selfish purpose really, friends help us feel better - whether it’s cheering you up when you’re sad, or just helping you to enjoy a good night out. Good friends will have a mutual relationship, both being able to rely on each for support, and for good times.
Sometimes it can be hard to be a good friend, if someone is going through a bad period, it may seem like a waste of time to keep on supporting them - but if you know they were a good friend, and will be again once they’re sorted out - it’s worth it. Think of your friends like torrent downloaders - there’s a seed/leech ratio. If someone is leeching from you, exhausting your energy and pulling you down, without ever supporting you, or making you smile - then that is a bad friend! Maybe their skills aren’t in making you laugh, but comforting you when you’re down, or even just making you feel good about yourself.
Just take a second to think about your friends, do they drag you down or lift you up? Are they really worthy of being your friend?
Now - think of yourself, do you do things to lift your friends? Or are you always bitching and moaning? Maybe today you go and do something nice for them, just a text to say how much you appreciate them, or making sure they’re ok. It’s so simple, but making people really is.
Finally - think about those people who really aren’t good friends and ask yourself - do I really need them?
03/02/2010
Ties
An interesting thought:
Imagine you, and all the people you know are tied together with elastic, in the middle of a field - on one side of that feild is happiness, the other depression. This feild is littered with obstacles and challenges. There's many different routes, some that you can walk, others that are realy hard.
Now, think of the people you know and how they would help/hinder you. There will be some that will help to motivate you to get over the wall, others that will show you a different way around, some that will just watch, others that will tell you you're doing it wrong, some that'll just drag you back. The further away they are the stronger the elastic pulls.
Some people will switch, sometimes helping you, sometimes hindering. But work out who those that never change are - those that continue to help are your true friends, make sure you're pulling them forward as much as they do for you. And those that are always behind you, cut them out of your life. No one should have to deal the constant negativity that those people bring.
In my case I know I would have Sam helping me, inspiring me to enjoy myself and make the most of who I am, Scott will be showing the sceneic route, with great adventures. Forx will help me see the creative way I can progress, Jenn will sometimes pull me back, but when I hold steady she'll help pull me forward again. There's people I dare not mention, that continue to make me smile - they know who they are though. Then I will have others, all niggling around behind me, not holding me back much, but never helping me forward. I intend to cut these people out.
Imagine you, and all the people you know are tied together with elastic, in the middle of a field - on one side of that feild is happiness, the other depression. This feild is littered with obstacles and challenges. There's many different routes, some that you can walk, others that are realy hard.
Now, think of the people you know and how they would help/hinder you. There will be some that will help to motivate you to get over the wall, others that will show you a different way around, some that will just watch, others that will tell you you're doing it wrong, some that'll just drag you back. The further away they are the stronger the elastic pulls.
Some people will switch, sometimes helping you, sometimes hindering. But work out who those that never change are - those that continue to help are your true friends, make sure you're pulling them forward as much as they do for you. And those that are always behind you, cut them out of your life. No one should have to deal the constant negativity that those people bring.
In my case I know I would have Sam helping me, inspiring me to enjoy myself and make the most of who I am, Scott will be showing the sceneic route, with great adventures. Forx will help me see the creative way I can progress, Jenn will sometimes pull me back, but when I hold steady she'll help pull me forward again. There's people I dare not mention, that continue to make me smile - they know who they are though. Then I will have others, all niggling around behind me, not holding me back much, but never helping me forward. I intend to cut these people out.
27/01/2010
Teen Hearts
You know I was saying about how the 'scene' is just gunna end up collapsing in on itself? Well no matter how hard the kids kick their legs, all of the neon wearing, alternative as grass, wannabe shit heads aren't gunna keep this latest addition to the gargage barge from sinking the whole damn thing.
Go google it, there's a million posts - It's not the racism, or the look, just listen to that song, and tell me it's alternative. If this is supposed to be alt, then I guess Alphabeat will on the rock show next week. Let's stop this alt/pop mash, by killing them all
Go google it, there's a million posts - It's not the racism, or the look, just listen to that song, and tell me it's alternative. If this is supposed to be alt, then I guess Alphabeat will on the rock show next week. Let's stop this alt/pop mash, by killing them all
20/01/2010
The Reason Girls Aren't Happy... Maybe
Ok, so lots of things happen, and I'm often wrong - I don't think a single girl will agree with me on this, but as far as I can tell this is what is happening.
It's why dating doesn't exist anymore.
It might be easiest to explain this as a story...
Boy and Girl are at a club, they bump into each other at the bar and get talking, it all goes quite nicely, maybe they kiss maybe they don't - but they do exchange numbers. For the next couple of days they text, then it moves to facebook and onto msn. They feel like they're getting to know each other pretty well, the guy is charming and lovely and pretty ok looking. so, they go out on a date.
Pause
Right now the guy is thinking, score a date - we can see where this leads. Afterall that's what a date is, a chance to really get to know the other person, see if they're the kind of person you'd like to see more of.
But, the girl is thinking, (unless they're a total weirdo) that this is the start of the relationship, they can stop flirting with other boys, they can relax, it's boyfriend time.
Chances are they'll have sex pretty soon after this, as that's what couples do, but if that was what the guy was after then that girl is gunna be heartbroken, or even if the guy is looking for a relationship, what if he doesn't see her as the girl for him? It looks like he was just after sex anyway, and she gets heartbroken.
This is why I stopped doing dates - dates allude to something more - but that's not the point.
My point is that boys and girls are not at the same stages in a relationship at the same time until much later. And this is the fault of the girl. Yes, it is, because by delaying a date until you 'get to know them' on msn you're getting an emotional attachement. There isn't supposed to be a pre-date but now there is - and it's fucking people about. Boys getting trapped in relationships and girls getting hurt simply because of all the additional comunication. It's not one persons fault really - boys and girls are just on different pages (until the girl tells the boy off and skips him forward a few!)
To back-up my argument I asked the girls around me whether they'd meet up someone they'd met once in a bar, even after a lot of texts and a couple calls they all said no.
THAT IS WHEN A DATE IS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!
These girls said they'd like to meet up with them when with their friends, and get to know them better in that kind of safer environment - fair enough, but eventually, it's going to go to facebook etc. The girls expectations grows as they chat online, while the guys doesn't at all - because guys can't get attached to words on a screen. Then it comes to date time and the girls expectations are way higher - again leading to dissapointment.
I've seen this happen a lot of times, with either the guy trapped (sometimes happily) or the girl upset. And it's happening to me at the moment, building rapport with someone I don't want a relationship with, if I ever manage to convince her to see me she may already be beyond the attachment point, and will end up hurt :(
There's only a few ways to deal with this.
1) Girls, meet these guys a lot earlier, realise they're not quite as lovely as they seem online and give them a chance to obsess about you. Boys need face time - we have porn, so chatting about your cat is not gunna make us fall for you!
2) Boys, if you want a relationship with the girl - great, you've got it. If not - be brutally honest as soon as you possibly can be. The girl will hate the loss of romance and propect of something more, but she will respect your honesty. I've blown my chances a few times, but it's better to go home alone than hurt a girl.
GOT IT?
Oh, and don't give anyone who fucks you around, I'm sure you've all found that out the hard way, and probably will again.
It's why dating doesn't exist anymore.
It might be easiest to explain this as a story...
Boy and Girl are at a club, they bump into each other at the bar and get talking, it all goes quite nicely, maybe they kiss maybe they don't - but they do exchange numbers. For the next couple of days they text, then it moves to facebook and onto msn. They feel like they're getting to know each other pretty well, the guy is charming and lovely and pretty ok looking. so, they go out on a date.
Pause
Right now the guy is thinking, score a date - we can see where this leads. Afterall that's what a date is, a chance to really get to know the other person, see if they're the kind of person you'd like to see more of.
But, the girl is thinking, (unless they're a total weirdo) that this is the start of the relationship, they can stop flirting with other boys, they can relax, it's boyfriend time.
Chances are they'll have sex pretty soon after this, as that's what couples do, but if that was what the guy was after then that girl is gunna be heartbroken, or even if the guy is looking for a relationship, what if he doesn't see her as the girl for him? It looks like he was just after sex anyway, and she gets heartbroken.
This is why I stopped doing dates - dates allude to something more - but that's not the point.
My point is that boys and girls are not at the same stages in a relationship at the same time until much later. And this is the fault of the girl. Yes, it is, because by delaying a date until you 'get to know them' on msn you're getting an emotional attachement. There isn't supposed to be a pre-date but now there is - and it's fucking people about. Boys getting trapped in relationships and girls getting hurt simply because of all the additional comunication. It's not one persons fault really - boys and girls are just on different pages (until the girl tells the boy off and skips him forward a few!)
To back-up my argument I asked the girls around me whether they'd meet up someone they'd met once in a bar, even after a lot of texts and a couple calls they all said no.
THAT IS WHEN A DATE IS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!
These girls said they'd like to meet up with them when with their friends, and get to know them better in that kind of safer environment - fair enough, but eventually, it's going to go to facebook etc. The girls expectations grows as they chat online, while the guys doesn't at all - because guys can't get attached to words on a screen. Then it comes to date time and the girls expectations are way higher - again leading to dissapointment.
I've seen this happen a lot of times, with either the guy trapped (sometimes happily) or the girl upset. And it's happening to me at the moment, building rapport with someone I don't want a relationship with, if I ever manage to convince her to see me she may already be beyond the attachment point, and will end up hurt :(
There's only a few ways to deal with this.
1) Girls, meet these guys a lot earlier, realise they're not quite as lovely as they seem online and give them a chance to obsess about you. Boys need face time - we have porn, so chatting about your cat is not gunna make us fall for you!
2) Boys, if you want a relationship with the girl - great, you've got it. If not - be brutally honest as soon as you possibly can be. The girl will hate the loss of romance and propect of something more, but she will respect your honesty. I've blown my chances a few times, but it's better to go home alone than hurt a girl.
GOT IT?
Oh, and don't give anyone who fucks you around, I'm sure you've all found that out the hard way, and probably will again.
14/01/2010
WTF
Tonight I got stood up for the third time in a row.
When did I become such a fool to allow this to happen?
Someone get me out of this - this is NOT who I am.
When did I become such a fool to allow this to happen?
Someone get me out of this - this is NOT who I am.
22/12/2009
Who do you think I am?
The top layers may be transparent, but that doesn't mean you can see the bottom.
16/12/2009
Sam has fun 2
*meh
*im not in the mood for messing
*ive been up all night barfing
Teh-Rawr says:
*I can tell!
Sam V says:
*and ive shit myself twice.
*im not in the mood for messing
*ive been up all night barfing
Teh-Rawr says:
*I can tell!
Sam V says:
*and ive shit myself twice.
Sam has fun
Sam V says:
*..
*i've pooped two pairs of boxers man!
*what a good day
Teh-Rawr says:
*actually pooped yourself?
Sam V says:
*TWICE!
*rolled over in my sleep on two seperate occasions
*thought it was fart.
*thought it was safe.
*BAM
*wet bung hole
Teh-Rawr says:
*brrruuuuuutal
*..
*i've pooped two pairs of boxers man!
*what a good day
Teh-Rawr says:
*actually pooped yourself?
Sam V says:
*TWICE!
*rolled over in my sleep on two seperate occasions
*thought it was fart.
*thought it was safe.
*BAM
*wet bung hole
Teh-Rawr says:
*brrruuuuuutal
29/10/2009
Epic Post!
It seems to me that those that like metal often tend to be depressed people. Now I'm not stupid enough to take that to mean that the music has that much of an effect on the person. But more that the music may be a reaction of the person, away from the norm that they are not happy with.
People who do not feel they fit in, use the music as an escape, and the subculture to find more people that are similar situations.
Of course, there is no problem with this in principle, but the problem arrises when you have the patients nursing the patients. While the unity may be there, the support structure is made up of people who need support themselves. This can only lead to bad places. With so many people on anti-depressants these days how can it be that anyone is really happy?
I guess what I'm trying to say, is that by grouping together they may be making it worse for themselves - certainly, some of the shit that arrises when you mix two people that are fucked up together is spectacular.
Just to clarify, I'm not saying all people that like metal (or emo or whatever) are depressed, nor that everyone who is on anti-depressants is fucked up. Just saying, it's an interesting subculture, a trap into which too many people fall into.
On another note:
Have some respect people!
I know that bitching happens, and it's actually a healthy way to vent about someone without having an arguement. But it's when people start fucking others over that I get annoyed. Don't ditch your mates, don't sleep with you ex's mates, don't start a fight over nothing, and don't go stirring. If two people have a fight, listen to them bitch and moan, try to make them feel better, try to sort it out if you want. But don't go feeding the fire by telling the people what horrible things the other has said.
Think about the consequences of your actions, and think of how it would feel to have the same happen to you.
I just want people to be happy!
BTW - I apologise for everytime I've failed to empathise with someone, I know there have been occasions that I've done things that have screwed a friend over. My humblist apologies, I'll do my best not to do it again!
And on another other note:
Hollywood has ruined our expectations of life. Everyone wants to have a happily ever after, a group of friends that will never leave, a BFF, an amazing career as a rock star/secret agent. And it's simply unreasonable, no-one actually leads the lives portrayed in movies, and no-one believe that they do. But they implant in us, at a young age, the idea, the hope that our lives could someday be like that. It stays with us for life - and if you're lucky, it feeds your ambitions and helps to drive you forward. But for others it provides a very unfair comparison to their own lives.
Comparing your own life to a film is like comparing a pebble to a sausage. There are some loose similarities (they both weigh an amount, both can be thrown at a duck) but beyond that there's no point. So how about you compare your life with your own life. Weigh up the positives and negatives, realise what you have got, and appreciate it. Remember the silver lining, all you need to do is reframe things in order for them to become a positive influence in your life.
So, stop think how inadequate your life is, reverse that frame and look at how awesome it is really. Stop sulking - it's ungrateful :P
And finally:
I'm up in brum this weekend, early finish at work, on the train, then off to play games and chill out with the best friends a guy could ask for. Then to anarchy, where I will see so many more people, people I love and care for each in different ways. I will be in my element, with great music, great friends and great dance moves ;)
Saturday will be spent eating filthy greasy breakfast, maybe getting my lip peirced and seeing all the people I don't get to in the evenings - there's a few that are high on this list! Then, at the crazy early time of 5 I'll be heading off to see a crazy amount of crazy metal bands playing crazy metal songs with my crazy metal friend (yes he's a robot) Then I'll be whipping out the costume for a night of more friends, more tunes, and more moves.
I can't wait, and I hope to see as many of you out as possible. You should all know how to get in touch, even my mobile number is on my facebook page!
Be happy people :D I am :P
People who do not feel they fit in, use the music as an escape, and the subculture to find more people that are similar situations.
Of course, there is no problem with this in principle, but the problem arrises when you have the patients nursing the patients. While the unity may be there, the support structure is made up of people who need support themselves. This can only lead to bad places. With so many people on anti-depressants these days how can it be that anyone is really happy?
I guess what I'm trying to say, is that by grouping together they may be making it worse for themselves - certainly, some of the shit that arrises when you mix two people that are fucked up together is spectacular.
Just to clarify, I'm not saying all people that like metal (or emo or whatever) are depressed, nor that everyone who is on anti-depressants is fucked up. Just saying, it's an interesting subculture, a trap into which too many people fall into.
On another note:
Have some respect people!
I know that bitching happens, and it's actually a healthy way to vent about someone without having an arguement. But it's when people start fucking others over that I get annoyed. Don't ditch your mates, don't sleep with you ex's mates, don't start a fight over nothing, and don't go stirring. If two people have a fight, listen to them bitch and moan, try to make them feel better, try to sort it out if you want. But don't go feeding the fire by telling the people what horrible things the other has said.
Think about the consequences of your actions, and think of how it would feel to have the same happen to you.
I just want people to be happy!
BTW - I apologise for everytime I've failed to empathise with someone, I know there have been occasions that I've done things that have screwed a friend over. My humblist apologies, I'll do my best not to do it again!
And on another other note:
Hollywood has ruined our expectations of life. Everyone wants to have a happily ever after, a group of friends that will never leave, a BFF, an amazing career as a rock star/secret agent. And it's simply unreasonable, no-one actually leads the lives portrayed in movies, and no-one believe that they do. But they implant in us, at a young age, the idea, the hope that our lives could someday be like that. It stays with us for life - and if you're lucky, it feeds your ambitions and helps to drive you forward. But for others it provides a very unfair comparison to their own lives.
Comparing your own life to a film is like comparing a pebble to a sausage. There are some loose similarities (they both weigh an amount, both can be thrown at a duck) but beyond that there's no point. So how about you compare your life with your own life. Weigh up the positives and negatives, realise what you have got, and appreciate it. Remember the silver lining, all you need to do is reframe things in order for them to become a positive influence in your life.
So, stop think how inadequate your life is, reverse that frame and look at how awesome it is really. Stop sulking - it's ungrateful :P
And finally:
I'm up in brum this weekend, early finish at work, on the train, then off to play games and chill out with the best friends a guy could ask for. Then to anarchy, where I will see so many more people, people I love and care for each in different ways. I will be in my element, with great music, great friends and great dance moves ;)
Saturday will be spent eating filthy greasy breakfast, maybe getting my lip peirced and seeing all the people I don't get to in the evenings - there's a few that are high on this list! Then, at the crazy early time of 5 I'll be heading off to see a crazy amount of crazy metal bands playing crazy metal songs with my crazy metal friend (yes he's a robot) Then I'll be whipping out the costume for a night of more friends, more tunes, and more moves.
I can't wait, and I hope to see as many of you out as possible. You should all know how to get in touch, even my mobile number is on my facebook page!
Be happy people :D I am :P
16/09/2009
I've just realised how much of a pussy I've been in my blog lately. It's always been pretty negative, what with all the super big rants about shit that annoys me, but it wasn't so miserable. I live a very happy life, I enjoy my work, I enjoy where I live and I like the people I live with. I get to go out and see bands a lot, and I get to go with cool people, I even get to do things I've never done before as well as meeting new people nearly everyday. This life is not bad, so if you feel like it is, maybe it's time to make a change - a real change. I see no reason for a healthy adult to be enjoying themselves everyday - even if you're working there's ways to have fun! Just talk to someone!
Please be Happy people - I'd hate to be the only one ;)
Please be Happy people - I'd hate to be the only one ;)
Music, people and music.
MUSIC1
It's been too long, so here's a megapost to keep you filled till something else happens that makes me write something.
I've been going to lots of gigs lately, it's one of my favourite things about living in london, but last night was somthing special. i went with Rob (of I Have clones) to see Blakfish, a band we played with a few years back while still with Allucinere. They were supported by Bats, and another band I've forgotten the name of. To put it bluntly the show was incredible. Highly technical, emotional, dynamic music, the kind that just isn't seen elsewhere. All the bands had a similar style, but their own unique sound added to the mix, elements of so many genres thrown together to make this intelligent hardcore type thing.
It sure makes the poppier bands I saw on monday look rather tame by comparison. While all the bands had a good sound, and some great catchy tunes, it was nothing compared to the intensity and complexity of last night. I can understand why the music scene is so disperate, and seemingly unhealthy, as unoriginality seems to be a key way to make it big.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, maybe just that bands like Blakfish and Bats deserve to be so much bigger (not that they're not doing pretty damn well these days) especially while other bands on the UK touring circuit are actually quite shit. I suppose in many ways I'm happy that these bands aren't huge, as their whole style would be lost in a room too big, the intimacy lost. Maybe one day it'll all work itself out.
PEOPLE
My greatest happiness and the deepest depression comes from the effects of other people. I expect this is the same for everyone. I've said this many times before, that I'm certainly not a perfect person, I don't like upsetting people and when I do, I feel very bad about it. But there are some people that seem to take solace in the destruction of others. There is no reason to deliberately talk down about people, I understand that bitching occurs, it's something that happens a lot and is usually quite healthy. It allows you to exhaust your greivences about a person before it blows up further. No-one wants to know it happens about the as well, so I think most people don't pass on this information. I know for damn sure that I wouldn't tell someone about a person bitching about them. It causes unnessesary grief for all involved - which just ain't cool - it's shit stirring.
And then there's those that seem to need to tear others down in order to build themselves up. In game theroy this is called Amoging, taking the piss out of another guy to make you look cool, however in game therory this is used to get the girl. Not that that makes it ok, it's still for wankers that don't have the personality to impress girls normally. But to do it with the sole intention to stop the other man from talking to a girl. That's just spite. If you think I'm a dick, I don't care, but at least give other people the chance to come to that conclusion themselves - I'm pretty good doin it myself, I don't need jealous losers doing it for me.
Makes me glad I've moved sometimes, knowing that such people are now a much smaller part of my life.
MUSIC2
It seems to me that the issue of music piracy is still a very big deal, from Lilly Allen, to Lil Boosie bitching about how it's destroying the industry, to band members sending download links to fans just so they hear the songs. It's so hypocritical when it comes down to it, when an artist is just starting, they just want people to hear the songs, but when they get big (sometimes because they have some actual talent) it all becomes about the money. I can understand that people want the money they have worked for, and I work for the company that helps them! But you can't use file sharing to get yourself popular then denounce it when it's losing you money. I look forward to a day when artists are making music because they want to, not because it might pay well, use your talent - get paid for it if you can - but if you're rich enough to waste money on fucking stupid jewellery and 10 holidays a year, then you're rich enough to not worry about some downloads. People make the assumption that every single person that downloads an album would have otherwise bought said album. This is not the case! I expect less than a quarter of downloaders would have even thought about buying it.
Get over it people, you're not too important to face facts - how about you be thankfull that people want to listen to what you create. How about you be thankfull that anyone at all would pay for it! You're doing a lot better than a lot of others, so stop your whining.
FINALLY
Where's all the scene/emo kids in london? and don't say camden.
It's been too long, so here's a megapost to keep you filled till something else happens that makes me write something.
I've been going to lots of gigs lately, it's one of my favourite things about living in london, but last night was somthing special. i went with Rob (of I Have clones) to see Blakfish, a band we played with a few years back while still with Allucinere. They were supported by Bats, and another band I've forgotten the name of. To put it bluntly the show was incredible. Highly technical, emotional, dynamic music, the kind that just isn't seen elsewhere. All the bands had a similar style, but their own unique sound added to the mix, elements of so many genres thrown together to make this intelligent hardcore type thing.
It sure makes the poppier bands I saw on monday look rather tame by comparison. While all the bands had a good sound, and some great catchy tunes, it was nothing compared to the intensity and complexity of last night. I can understand why the music scene is so disperate, and seemingly unhealthy, as unoriginality seems to be a key way to make it big.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, maybe just that bands like Blakfish and Bats deserve to be so much bigger (not that they're not doing pretty damn well these days) especially while other bands on the UK touring circuit are actually quite shit. I suppose in many ways I'm happy that these bands aren't huge, as their whole style would be lost in a room too big, the intimacy lost. Maybe one day it'll all work itself out.
PEOPLE
My greatest happiness and the deepest depression comes from the effects of other people. I expect this is the same for everyone. I've said this many times before, that I'm certainly not a perfect person, I don't like upsetting people and when I do, I feel very bad about it. But there are some people that seem to take solace in the destruction of others. There is no reason to deliberately talk down about people, I understand that bitching occurs, it's something that happens a lot and is usually quite healthy. It allows you to exhaust your greivences about a person before it blows up further. No-one wants to know it happens about the as well, so I think most people don't pass on this information. I know for damn sure that I wouldn't tell someone about a person bitching about them. It causes unnessesary grief for all involved - which just ain't cool - it's shit stirring.
And then there's those that seem to need to tear others down in order to build themselves up. In game theroy this is called Amoging, taking the piss out of another guy to make you look cool, however in game therory this is used to get the girl. Not that that makes it ok, it's still for wankers that don't have the personality to impress girls normally. But to do it with the sole intention to stop the other man from talking to a girl. That's just spite. If you think I'm a dick, I don't care, but at least give other people the chance to come to that conclusion themselves - I'm pretty good doin it myself, I don't need jealous losers doing it for me.
Makes me glad I've moved sometimes, knowing that such people are now a much smaller part of my life.
MUSIC2
It seems to me that the issue of music piracy is still a very big deal, from Lilly Allen, to Lil Boosie bitching about how it's destroying the industry, to band members sending download links to fans just so they hear the songs. It's so hypocritical when it comes down to it, when an artist is just starting, they just want people to hear the songs, but when they get big (sometimes because they have some actual talent) it all becomes about the money. I can understand that people want the money they have worked for, and I work for the company that helps them! But you can't use file sharing to get yourself popular then denounce it when it's losing you money. I look forward to a day when artists are making music because they want to, not because it might pay well, use your talent - get paid for it if you can - but if you're rich enough to waste money on fucking stupid jewellery and 10 holidays a year, then you're rich enough to not worry about some downloads. People make the assumption that every single person that downloads an album would have otherwise bought said album. This is not the case! I expect less than a quarter of downloaders would have even thought about buying it.
Get over it people, you're not too important to face facts - how about you be thankfull that people want to listen to what you create. How about you be thankfull that anyone at all would pay for it! You're doing a lot better than a lot of others, so stop your whining.
FINALLY
Where's all the scene/emo kids in london? and don't say camden.
29/07/2009
People
Hello, I am a person.
Like all people, I have flaws (and plenty of them!) but in general I think I'm a pretty ok guy. But every now and again I come into contact with people that I really struggle with, people that are just plain horrible.
I don't understand these people, they're always miserable, seeming so unhappy with what they've got. Not only that, but they seem to want to bring everyone else down with them, as if somehow that'll make them seem better by comparison.
I don't live an ideal life, (what with the girls n all) but I don't hurt people on purpose, infact I avoid it as much as possible. I'm not great at it, but at least I don't attack others.
What I like most is meeting people, but I don't like meeting those people. It takes a lot to get me down, so when someone does, they were either very close, or very miserable!
Be happy people, and lets get on with our lives yeah?
Like all people, I have flaws (and plenty of them!) but in general I think I'm a pretty ok guy. But every now and again I come into contact with people that I really struggle with, people that are just plain horrible.
I don't understand these people, they're always miserable, seeming so unhappy with what they've got. Not only that, but they seem to want to bring everyone else down with them, as if somehow that'll make them seem better by comparison.
I don't live an ideal life, (what with the girls n all) but I don't hurt people on purpose, infact I avoid it as much as possible. I'm not great at it, but at least I don't attack others.
What I like most is meeting people, but I don't like meeting those people. It takes a lot to get me down, so when someone does, they were either very close, or very miserable!
Be happy people, and lets get on with our lives yeah?
12/07/2009
Emo post
This one's about a girl. If she ever reads this, which I hope she does, then I hope she understands.
I've been feeling a bit down of late, having fallen out with the girl, but I don't feel it was entirely fair, I was made to be the villan by her own victimisation. There were so many things that she could have done to stop what happened, like being as straight up with me as she always insisted I was with her.
But that's not the point, she's got new friends now, and a new guy too. But I miss her, more than I ever thought I would. I really cared for her, and while I may not have shown it so well, she was one of my best friends. The amount of time we'd spend together, is now empty time. I don't like this feelin of lonelyness at all. I guess what I wanted her for was not the sex, but the companionship. I like to feel that. I'll never get back what I lost with her, and I suppose she'd say that it was karma, but while I made mistakes, I never hurt her diliberately. I never wnated for this too happen, and it's possible that I'll be fine once I find another girl. But there will always be a place for her.
It's hard knowing that she moved on so quick, as if my holiday wasn't just me going away, but a chance for her to start cutting me out of her life. She's replaced me, and in some ways I'm happy that she's got more friends, friends that will be there for her after I've gone. But it doens't make me feel much better. I know that my lifestyle is one that is not often thought highly of, but while I'm young and able, I want to enjoy what I enjoy. Even if what I enjoy is chatting up girls. In the end, it all comes down to sex, and for me, talking to girls, just being with girls, is one of my favourite things. I get such a buzz and I enjoy the rewards, but there are many times when I need that bit of reliable female company. Someone who is more than just a lay, more than just some girl, and while it's rare that the girls I meet are so casual, it's nice to have something more intimate, more personal.
I want what I had with this girl back, not the sex, but the company. I miss her so much. I don't know what I'd do just to spend a night with her again. Especially with me going away. I don't want to have such a big regret, I don't want to leave on bad terms. She's one of the coolest girls I know, and as close as any of my girlfriends have ever been, but it went wrong, and now I can't look at her without feeling that hurt. I miss her soo much. I don't know how I caoul ever fix it, and in soo many ways I don't want to, because I don't want to mess up what she has now.
I will get over this soon enough, but for now - I just want her back.
I've been feeling a bit down of late, having fallen out with the girl, but I don't feel it was entirely fair, I was made to be the villan by her own victimisation. There were so many things that she could have done to stop what happened, like being as straight up with me as she always insisted I was with her.
But that's not the point, she's got new friends now, and a new guy too. But I miss her, more than I ever thought I would. I really cared for her, and while I may not have shown it so well, she was one of my best friends. The amount of time we'd spend together, is now empty time. I don't like this feelin of lonelyness at all. I guess what I wanted her for was not the sex, but the companionship. I like to feel that. I'll never get back what I lost with her, and I suppose she'd say that it was karma, but while I made mistakes, I never hurt her diliberately. I never wnated for this too happen, and it's possible that I'll be fine once I find another girl. But there will always be a place for her.
It's hard knowing that she moved on so quick, as if my holiday wasn't just me going away, but a chance for her to start cutting me out of her life. She's replaced me, and in some ways I'm happy that she's got more friends, friends that will be there for her after I've gone. But it doens't make me feel much better. I know that my lifestyle is one that is not often thought highly of, but while I'm young and able, I want to enjoy what I enjoy. Even if what I enjoy is chatting up girls. In the end, it all comes down to sex, and for me, talking to girls, just being with girls, is one of my favourite things. I get such a buzz and I enjoy the rewards, but there are many times when I need that bit of reliable female company. Someone who is more than just a lay, more than just some girl, and while it's rare that the girls I meet are so casual, it's nice to have something more intimate, more personal.
I want what I had with this girl back, not the sex, but the company. I miss her so much. I don't know what I'd do just to spend a night with her again. Especially with me going away. I don't want to have such a big regret, I don't want to leave on bad terms. She's one of the coolest girls I know, and as close as any of my girlfriends have ever been, but it went wrong, and now I can't look at her without feeling that hurt. I miss her soo much. I don't know how I caoul ever fix it, and in soo many ways I don't want to, because I don't want to mess up what she has now.
I will get over this soon enough, but for now - I just want her back.
19/05/2009
Is it worth it?
It has occured to me lately, that a lot of things really aren't worth the effort.
Uni - see previous post
relationships - surely far more hassle than they're worth
gigs - far too much effort and that I'm sure of
bands - not too bad...
I guess it's just the stress of trying to run a promotions company and having so few people come along. I don't try to make money, I just want the bands to get paid for their efforts (or at least their petrol!)
I got a good friend in to help, but that rather turned into a disaster as we're both as stubborn as each other, and now I think she hates me :( this certainly wasn't the intention - more people = less stress? I wish!
Everytime I do a gig, it seems that I put so much work in, and while the bands are always great (there has been only one exception so far) I don't make any money and the night ends rather on a low. I don't want this, but I don't know how to actually get more people into that room and enjoying it!
So I guess the big qustion is simply - is it worth it?
why go to all this effort? my band plays to a bunch of apathetic people who only came to see their mate, and to the wags as usual, and the other bands suffer the same.
There's a gig coming up on the 3rd June, I think it will be my last (at least until after summer) I don't mean to be emo today, or melodramatic, but this blog is for me to write what I want so there.
PS
Listen to:
iwrestledabearonce
rolo tomoassi
cobra starship
brand new - always listen to brand new
glassjaw
sonic boom six
now go to bed.
Uni - see previous post
relationships - surely far more hassle than they're worth
gigs - far too much effort and that I'm sure of
bands - not too bad...
I guess it's just the stress of trying to run a promotions company and having so few people come along. I don't try to make money, I just want the bands to get paid for their efforts (or at least their petrol!)
I got a good friend in to help, but that rather turned into a disaster as we're both as stubborn as each other, and now I think she hates me :( this certainly wasn't the intention - more people = less stress? I wish!
Everytime I do a gig, it seems that I put so much work in, and while the bands are always great (there has been only one exception so far) I don't make any money and the night ends rather on a low. I don't want this, but I don't know how to actually get more people into that room and enjoying it!
So I guess the big qustion is simply - is it worth it?
why go to all this effort? my band plays to a bunch of apathetic people who only came to see their mate, and to the wags as usual, and the other bands suffer the same.
There's a gig coming up on the 3rd June, I think it will be my last (at least until after summer) I don't mean to be emo today, or melodramatic, but this blog is for me to write what I want so there.
PS
Listen to:
iwrestledabearonce
rolo tomoassi
cobra starship
brand new - always listen to brand new
glassjaw
sonic boom six
now go to bed.
24/03/2009
Nostalgia, regrets and remorse.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life.
I keep making mistakes (when will I learn?) and I have plenty of regrets, but I'm in two minds, I've I'd have done it all differently, would I feel any happier? Would I have accomplished more? Would I be any different?
Well, here's a little list of the big decisions, it's a little of my insides for you to look at.
Birmingham - I love and hate this city. It's horrible, but I've some of the greatest people I could ever hope to meet here. I want to leave, but I don't want to leave those friends, and I definately don't want to leave the bands! It's a horrible city where everyone is horrible, there's no grass, and no comunity. Worst of all, there's fuck all music scene. But I love my house... and I love anarchy... I just don't know what to do!
University - Why did I ever go to Aston? Because it was what I was supposed to do, if only I'd listened to my brother, and just told my parents that I wasn't sure about uni. Perhaps I'd have done a gap year and how my life would've been different...
Music - You know what, I really don't know if I could've done much more here! I joined every band that wanted me, I play with anyone that asks me, and I fucking go for it. I'm scared it's now too late, the 18-21 gap is gone. I just hope thats not the end of my chances.
Girls - I want to experience (yes, I mean sleep with) all of the pretty girls that I went to school with, all of the pretty girls I've met over the years. It just seems like a wasted oppurtunity... So much fun could've been had.
Everyone - every cool person I met and never got to know. Where are you all now?
In the end, I've missed out on a lot, but I've also done my fair share. My mission in life is to make an impact, to be rememebered for something more than just being alive. To have truely existed, and not be forgotten. Or at least to experience everything I can.
There's millions of things I haven't done, people I haven't met, places I haven't been, and I want to do as much as I can before I blink out of here.
So, changing subject somewhat. If you can offer me an experience (I will consider almost anything) Whether it's going to see a new town, playing a new game, even just going to a new pub, I am up for it.
Please, just invite me along, and be friendly!
Hell, I'll do the Fight Club thing if I can!
I keep making mistakes (when will I learn?) and I have plenty of regrets, but I'm in two minds, I've I'd have done it all differently, would I feel any happier? Would I have accomplished more? Would I be any different?
Well, here's a little list of the big decisions, it's a little of my insides for you to look at.
Birmingham - I love and hate this city. It's horrible, but I've some of the greatest people I could ever hope to meet here. I want to leave, but I don't want to leave those friends, and I definately don't want to leave the bands! It's a horrible city where everyone is horrible, there's no grass, and no comunity. Worst of all, there's fuck all music scene. But I love my house... and I love anarchy... I just don't know what to do!
University - Why did I ever go to Aston? Because it was what I was supposed to do, if only I'd listened to my brother, and just told my parents that I wasn't sure about uni. Perhaps I'd have done a gap year and how my life would've been different...
Music - You know what, I really don't know if I could've done much more here! I joined every band that wanted me, I play with anyone that asks me, and I fucking go for it. I'm scared it's now too late, the 18-21 gap is gone. I just hope thats not the end of my chances.
Girls - I want to experience (yes, I mean sleep with) all of the pretty girls that I went to school with, all of the pretty girls I've met over the years. It just seems like a wasted oppurtunity... So much fun could've been had.
Everyone - every cool person I met and never got to know. Where are you all now?
In the end, I've missed out on a lot, but I've also done my fair share. My mission in life is to make an impact, to be rememebered for something more than just being alive. To have truely existed, and not be forgotten. Or at least to experience everything I can.
There's millions of things I haven't done, people I haven't met, places I haven't been, and I want to do as much as I can before I blink out of here.
So, changing subject somewhat. If you can offer me an experience (I will consider almost anything) Whether it's going to see a new town, playing a new game, even just going to a new pub, I am up for it.
Please, just invite me along, and be friendly!
Hell, I'll do the Fight Club thing if I can!
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